perri pickles + imperfections

this is the best advise my best friend has ever given me. i know it’s personal, but it’s too amazing not to share.  hope this helps you as much as it helped me. love, cp

“first of all, no one has to have it all figured out at 25. I remember being 25 and thinking I knew all the answers, that way i thought I knew them all at 15. Here I am about to turn thirty and still don’t know them, but to me and as an outsider, I don’t think the issue with your relationship is that you don’t love each other or want to be together, I think that you guys struggle existing in an ever changing relationship. To me is seems like you guys are either 100% perfect, in love, can’t be happier, on a beach, at home, on tour whatever, or you are convinced it is over and you won’t ever let him back in your life. Very high highs, and very low lows. 

two years ago i made a bucket list with my best friend full of all the things i could possibly dream of. keltie + i deemed 2010 “the 10” and it was going to be the best year of our lives.

fast forward to july 2010… every single thing on my list came true (ie. quit smoking, sign a record deal, open a savings account, meet jason mraz.. etc..) seriously. it was epic + it all happened.

so this past year keltie + i decided to do it again + this time were were going to dream even bigger! the number one thing on my list this year was:
 ”HAVE A SONG ON THE BREAKING DAWN SOUNDTRACK”
and it happened!!!!!! ahhhh!!!!! + the whole soundtrack seems amazing! im soo honored to be smack in the middle of all those artists! i am so grateful for this opportunity!

“a thousand years” is a brand new song me + my best friend david hodges wrote for bella + edward. we wrote it after we so luckily screened the movie (ahhhh! you’re all going to flip out its the best movie ever!!!)

i couldn’t be more proud of this song.
or more proud of myself for not giving up on my dream.

the moral of this story is:
everything is possible!
manifest your dreams!
never ever ever give up!
dream HUGE!

yayy!!!

love,
cp

special thanks to: alexandra patsavas, chop shop + atlantic records xo

so the winds of change are a blowin’ and man it’s scary. i feel so uneasy, uncomfortable, scared + breathless. why is the unknown so meteorically terrifying? why does the thought of growing out of my comfort zone + doing somethings ive never done before leave me paralyzed? why do i have to make all the decisions? why can’t i tell the difference between my head + my heart?

this amazing + challenging year has been epicly up + down for me. i believe in order to enjoy the purest high of life, that an equal low will without a doubt appear at any given moment. for me i had lots of highs;  achievements. dreams. successes. headlining tours. great shows. family support. + love… so inevitably there were the lows; tears. pain. cancellations. surgeries. break ups. heart ache. fights. + mistakes.

i always forget that it turns around.
i always forget that it works out.
i always forget that my feelings wont kill me.
i always forget to trust in my path no matter what.

i honestly just forget everything—-maybe because im human. maybe because im small. maybe because im learning. but maybe i don’t need to know why. i think if i were really in control, i’d mess it all up. i wouldn’t have made it here.. i would have over thought my way out of my hopes + dreams + might be in my pajamas somewhere in philadelphia wishing i could be who i am now.

so here i am again, in transition from something awesome to something awesome… but crawling out of my skin.

what will happen? what will it be like? how will i get through? when does the ache stop? will i ever love again? will i be able to sing better then ever? will i learn to control my breath again? did i do the right thing? would they tell me if i didn’t? will they like me over there? what will happen if we don’t find another one like it? why does it hurt? why am i so lucky? why? when? where? + how?

i can keep asking + stay uncomfortable… or i can let go + just believe everything will be okay. because i will be taken care of, no matter what, i always am. and so are you.

let go,
love
cp

i went to a brunchy pool party hang today + had no idea what to expect. i grew up without a lot of girlfriends. i just got along better with boys because i grew up with a brother + all the kids on my block were boys + i played alot of mario brothers + kick the can… so when it came time for school, i didnt know a lot about my little pony, or american girl dolls, or barbie, so i didnt fit in… that trend seemed to continue all thru my life… i was just a little strange. sometimes i wore a tye-dye tee shirt under my uniform, sometimes i sat with my rad english teacher at lunch, sometimes id be gone for 2 weeks on tour with my brother, sometimes i knew way more about the beatles then anyone in my school, sometimes i wrote poetry instead of notes in class and got detention. sometimes i just didnt fit in… so getting ready for this fun girly party, i wondered how it might go. things have changed since highschool + gradeschool + i have females in my life that i love + i like myself today, so i squashed all my worry + out the door i went. well, i had the best time ever. every girl who showed up was humble, charming, kind, sweet, caring + funny. we had a ball just being ourselves. i felt happy to be there + honored to be a part of such an amazing + talented group of women, who seriously rock my socks off.. on stage… and off :)

yay. today was awesome.

love,

cp

ps, you’re good enough— just the way you are!